The name is Missa, but you can call me the Sarcastic Narcissist.
I’m not entirely sure what there is to say about myself to give you a bit of an introduction to who I am. I suppose I’d fit into the “average 18 year old female” role. I graduated from High School last year, took a year off to weigh my options, and am pretty much figuring that I’m going to be taking a paralegal course in the fall. And that’s the story of my life.
I aspire to be a lawyer, but I’m settling for less because that’s just how I roll. I’m stuck with this mentality that I’m not good enough for whatever I really want. However, I guess all hope isn’t lost. After I finish the course if I can work in a law firm for a bit, maybe one day I’ll attempt going to Law School once I have experience.
I’ve spent the majority of my life feeling sorry for myself, and putting the blame on others — when really I had to look deep down to actually realize that I wasn’t going to start feeling better until I accepted fault. Over the past 6 years, I’ve dealt with self injury, depression, an eating disorder, been put on anti-depressants, attempted suicide countless times, etc, etc.
Now, before you close your browser thinking, “Great, another emo kid. Forget this.” I want you to realize something. Sure, those things in the past may have defined who I was, they don’t define who I am now. I think mainly the whole reason I created this blog was to hope that perhaps someone might end up reading it, and realizing that there’s life beyond the mishaps of your past, and that like I had said before — once you take a good look at yourself, and realize that only you are holding yourself back, you can begin to move on from the person you used to be. Sure, I’m not entirely “better”, and I’m sure that you’ll realize I’m still struggling with things, but that’s just how life goes.
Alright, that made no sense, and this is a horrible introduction. I really need to work on being more eloquent if I’m going to be writing a blog (even if I’m entirely sure no one will ever read it).
I guess that’s about all for my introduction. Perhaps the next entry will make a bit more sense.
